LESSON ONE

LESSON 1

Nothing I see in this room [on this street,
from this window, in this place] means anything

Nothing I see means anything…

Imagine… imagine that this were true… I’m not talkin’ theory here. I’m talking about reality. (Cuz it kinda sound easy enough (in theory) yes? ... This is my point.

 This first lesson is the first step... 

For me, the first step is always the slipperiest. My mind will do anything to convince me that the new message I am exposing it to, is not true… 

It’s most seductive ploy is denial. And here’s how it does it.  It tells me, ‘I get it’ and it begins the ‘I know’ list’ stored up for just such an occasion; sighting evidence from the list and cross-referencing it with the ‘spiritual experiences’ log. And  the yeah, yeah, yeah’s begin from yesterdays work, dumbifying me into a false sense having already arrived. 

This manuever literally places wholehearted acceptance of the Atonement just out of my reach, which leaves me every vulnerable to the disillusionment inherent in the world I think I see…

 It seems I have been wrong.... about it all... even what 'spirituality' is...

 I do not know, after all.

Hump… this appears to be a brand new portal to learning now. A new chance to see...

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Nothing I see in this room means anything.

 Imagine… imagine that this were true…not in theory, in reality.

 I have imagined it all real; every separate part, which is, incidentally, what, gave it meaning in the first place….

As I empty out my known-self, I give myself over to the lesson. I notice all pictures are fading… my sense of self dis-illusioning…

NOTHING I SEE… MEANS ANYTHING……