…because I have no neutral thoughts…
I love trusting the process of the lesson structure. It feels good to have faith in this Course that spoke the essence of truth and love to me from the first moment I opened its pages. This hasn’t always been the case. Back in the beginning, I was always feeling afraid I would forget the lesson throughout the day, (I did), afraid that I would do too few practice periods to “get it”, afraid that I would be unconsciously sabotaging and defeating myself. Of course, all that came to pass. I see how each moment’s progress (often looking a close impersonation to failure) was perfect for me.
…And now; well, now I notice I can’t forget... “I see no neutral things,” (or whatever the lesson) answers every question the day seems to ask. What happens is the business of the miracle; the shift in perception from thinking I have any idea about the truth of what I think I see, to realizing that very idea of thinking I know, is the very deflector the ego is using at the time, to avert me from using the mirror of my thoughts for my function of forgiveness.
The personality, doesn’t know. But alas, the One Who does know, has been invited to reinterpret my life, by my willing commitment to the curriculum set forth in God’s plan for salvation… Even when my little ‘I’ fails to remember something… the Holy Spirit always has my back!
It is a comfort to realize that regardless of what I might think I think… the Holy Spirit is reaching me at the perfect module possible, matching my available willingness for the maximum benefit at this time, without increasing fear or reproducing time.
I feel in a suspended in sense of timeless safety, while I let the past be undone: I watch the past images drift by, not substantially lodging themselves anymore; while I take instruction from within. Furthermore, I am not alone and we are One…
So it is, that I, the personality, see no neutral things because I have no neutral thoughts…That works for me… Joyously, I watch the show from Here, Now~ and not know ‘what’s going to happen or what it means when it does, and wait… Thanks for joining me above the battleground.
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