“My holiness envelops everything I see… My holiness blesses the world… There is nothing that my holiness cannot do … My holiness is my salvation … I am blessed as the Son of God…”
What I am seeing is always what I’m looking with…
Somehow, through following along the path the Holy Spirit leads through A Course in Miracles, I began to realize that every where I looked, everything I saw; from the tiniest little thing that seemed to go on, really was coming from me… Even if my first reaction was that the situation as totally blind-siding me, as I learned to be honest, I saw I put it there…
Turns out, I am the one…
This kind of honesty is not for the faint-hearted, by the way. It requires “abundant willingness”. We have to be willing to look at our so-called faults and character defects, square-in-the-eye.
It requires the faith in the holiness beyond, to have the internal fortitude to do what is necessary. I know I had to look at, and sometimes even fondle some pretty ugly forms, beliefs, identities, and ways of being, in order to see that they are all the same~~ merely a shadow of guilt.
And ultimately…they turned out be nothing.
~Shadow of guilt~ yes… Yet, our belief in them as real makes them so to us. Guilt and fear’s sentinels present as the shadow side of the self image, and are so painfully unacceptable that projecting it as far away as possible and forgetting where it came from was apparently, the only viable solution at the time we thought them up…
The return to honestly requires just a little willingness to be wrong. To cop to that your assessment about everything was off the mark. In actuality; in that twisted sort of way this world is experienced, it actually feels good~ as excruciating as it is ~ it is good in a very ‘real’ sort of way; ~a way that says, “Perhaps there is another way, after all…”
And, then it begins~… First the obvious, bearable things come to the surface… Then with consistent willingness and with deeper honestly raising all the used, abused ideas; the demons once valued in fear such that one felt compelled not only to run from, but if necessary, bury alive rather than face and own, are raised up…
But ah, unfolding along with this willingness, we experience the fact of our holiness...
We begin to experience a healing, releasing joy arise from very deep within. This is the inevitable awakening of the internal light. Right along side the fears and judgments being reviewed, a light so unmistakable and compelling holds us in comfort and safety. And as we continue on, we get a sense that this light, with its eternal presence, has been present, all along. This illuminating awareness dawns profoundly as the very light of holiness itself, the holiness that is the Self…
For me, the recognition of holiness began to dawn, when I first placed my faith in the idea of the Holy Spirit… I had to put it somewhere since I knew I had no faith in myself at the time, and I could not be trusted.
The next step followed naturally … Through trusting that the Holy Spirit was with me and within me, gradually I began to recognize that ‘this was my holiness’ that the Course was talking about! It was like, duh, how could anything be separated out from everything? I came to see, by trusting the Holy Spirit within my mind, that I was at the same time, trusting my holiness, recognizing on some unfamiliar/familiar level, that it is only my holiness I can trust, and it NEVER fails me… There is nothing my holiness cannot do…
…Another world has developed before my very eyes… From my holiness does the perception of the real world come. My holiness blesses the world…
Having forgiven, guilt is replaced with faith. Faithlessness is healed along with guilt, being saved for me by holiness itself… In accepting my holiness, fear is replaced by love. The peace of God is my one goal. This faith has become my holy companion… Certainty now sits where wishful thinking used to reside…
There is no other way for me… How could it be any other way? I have experienced forgiveness. My life is the Miracle~ and I am not afraid… I am blessed as a Son of God… along with you, my brothers, who are one with me…we are the light of Christ that makes it possible to see…
First the obvious, bearable things come to the surface… Then with consistent willingness and with deeper honestly raising all the used, abused ideas; the demons once valued in fear such that one felt compelled not only to run from, but if necessary, bury alive rather than face and own, are raised up…
ReplyDeleteDear Danet - I'm having difficulty with looking within and bringing things to the surface at the moment and it keeps me locked into the thought system that denies my holiness and keeps separation and personhood in experience.
When I seem to look at thoughts, it doesn't feel like I'm really releasing it or seeing it's falsity so it just gets buried again. I wonder if you have any tips about looking within and bringing these buried demons and fears to the surface in a really practical way. When I apply the work book lessons it seems like I'm just doing it mentally and the release doesn't happen and they keep swimming around in my head and the guilt and fear stays in tact. I could be wrong about this but I'm pretty sure as the fears and false ideas are released and seen through - peace is experienced and the light comes to the forefront and the "loopiness" and chaotic thinking falls away because the fear and guilt that was generating it has been released.
Much love