“My grievances hide the light of the world in me… My salvation comes from me”…
All grievances, no matter what form they seem to take, all boil down to the same thing. Judgment: judging my brother and judging myself, which is the same thing. It is, in fact, the setting of judgment upon the Son of God…
“Judgment is a decision, made again and again, against creation and its Creator. It is a decision to perceive the universe, as I would have created it... it is a decision that truth can lie and must be lies.”
Forgiveness recognizes the falsity of my judgments. What appears to be ‘outside’ myself, I merely projected onto peoples and situations. I did this because of the intolerability of the guilt they represent within my own mind. This ‘inside-job’, is due to believing the first misperception: separation. This is but the possibility that something could happen apart from what God Wills.
Forgiveness is the returning to the mind, every sentinel of darkness my private mind sent out, to rid itself of the intolerable feeling of guilt resulting from believing this first lie. It was the first grievance and attack upon the Son of God.
The concept private-mind with private thoughts is necessary for there to be ‘others’ one can displace the resulting heritage of this one mis-thought left uncorrected. This is the self-concept / other-concept which are mistaken for life. So many labels and attitude did I judge as unacceptable in the so-called life of It’s incredible to round them up and bring them home at last and see the nothingness they are without the task assigned for them carry out.
The Holy Spirit very gently, reinterprets each, and restores peace.
And the Holy Spirit uses whatever we are into as a back-drop for this restoration and healing.
I first began to get an inkling that what was in front of my face; persons and ‘their’ issues might also be my issues, doing therapy with clients. It’s like the Holy Spirit just brought me my unhealed mind, one issue/misbelieve at a time in the form of clientele. Quickly I saw that everything that came into the office, I could relate to and want healed. It took a while for me to realize that I was not responsible for how healing took place or what sort of result would determine successes for both of us. And it really wasn’t until I began to suspect that the ‘both’ wasn’t the truth; that we were one in the same that I began to truly give the sessions over to the Holy Spirit.
I felt humbled in appreciation for this space of consecration to my faith in healing through the Holy Spirit within the one mind of the Son of God.
Finally, I realized that my life was the session.
Total self deception cannot be long maintained when the mind has glimpsed the light… The inevitability that nothing else satisfies breaks down all defenses and resistance… Nothing I’d made of my mind remained sacred to my private mind; no “secret compartment’ could be valued and kept closed. Eventually, I wanted only to see the truth. I didn’t care what lies and labels I had to go through and forgive in order to get there… Of course, they’re all the same, but because we separate then off by assigning our judgments: accept or project, each must be opened, placed on the alter and transformed to the awareness of oneness, which forgiveness brings.
Total responsibility for every itsy-bitsy projection, must be brought to the Holy Spirit’s judgment, where it is revealed as nothing in the light of forgiveness and only the love exchanged, remains. This is what the Course refers to as the last judgment; looking with the Holy Spirit upon everything we’ve made, seeing the false as false and as the call for love that forgiveness shows us they are, and seeing that only love is real, changeless and eternal and cannot be altered by fantasy in any way.
So every situation, every encounter, is a relationship designed to heal the mind to this return. For each of us the curriculum and process is perfect and have maximal effectiveness for our return to sanity given our current state of readiness. And, on this note, I have learned this; the only thing I could do to assist in expediting my readiness was and is to give ALL over to the Holy Spirit through my willingness to ‘not know’ and trust… This is my little part… This is my salvation… And it is just enough! Thanks for the mind-meld…
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