My Self is ruler of the universe…
This is a primary theme in the Course. There is absolutely no possibility that anything could happen in my universe, except by way of my Self, regardless of how I focus my attention. I can place it outward~ so as to see a small and frightened me in a big bad world, or I can turn inward~ so as to see from the Self; the vast and glorious light of creation within and beyond the world of form.
This option, incidentally, allows for me to focus my attention to accept that the previous thought of littleness is just one of many belief options within the illusion; within the vast array of belief options which are not my Self, but dreamed up by me, instead…. Which I can do with what I please…
You know, when I came to this lesson the first time around, as with other similar statements in throughout the Course, I felt almost embarrassed. I definitely felt it was an idea arrogant to my place of reverence to a power-greater-than-myself, which I felt beholden-to for the success I had received thus far in forgiving myself and awakening unto Him.
It was a difficult lesson for me and one I felt dishonest in applying, due to my perceived unworthiness. However, being the ‘good-student’, I did my best…
What I received at that time was a strong, warm feeling message, an impression that I would understand in time. I saw that, from the point of reference I held at the time, I was too identified with littleness to see the big picture, let alone see that my Self ruled over it. So I accepted that I didn’t know. (After all, up to this point in my life, I had been wrong about everything else, why not this…)
I felt an inner instruction to read and reread the section in Chapter 15 called Littleness versus Magnitude; giving my understanding over to the Holy Spirit. So I read it.
I read and contemplated this section every day for 90 days. I began to get a sense of that the ‘me’ point of reference I had been holding, and had taken for granted as true, was simply a misperception.
I really was wrong about myself and the world.
I further saw that holding myself in this way, which I had been thinking was ‘humble’, was really arrogance and was placing a barrier around me so as to render me unavailable to fully accept the Atonement for myself. (In other words, it was a delay tactic.)
By the grace of God, I gave myself over to the miracle.
I came to accept the Holy Spirit as within my mind and therefore at least part of myself, which has freed me to allow for correction of my small and limited perspective.
As a result, I began to feel the expanse… Every shadow/belief is filtered up and seen as nothing but perspective and I am able to let them go to the idea of nothingness.
My willingness to surrender my private mind as it reveals itself is the obvious next step instead of the hidden terror it had been, undercover…
The difference? The difference was merely a shift from the seeing perspective of difference in you and me, and seeing instead, with the eyes of sameness…
This is my humility.
I see that you and I are the Son that God created as ruler of the universe…
Truly… it’s a miracle… NOW has (as it always was in truth) become my point of reference. Here, Now, our wholeness, is the only perspective I want…
Through my willingness to be wrong about everything, the little me has given way to the Self, which has shown me Heaven on earth.
I see the face of Christ in my brothers and a world of Creation where Love gives unto itself. It receives and expands and expresses the Self in everyone, every moment, everything, every situation and circumstance… It is the Self...
My Self is ruler of the universe.
Thank you ~ I love you.
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