LESSON NINETEEN

Lesson 19:
"I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts…"
I am so humbled by the holographic nature of the Course, the thorough, all encompassing theoretical structure of the text ~the simplicity and uncompromising tenacity of the workbook lessons… And all to assist the reversal of my up-side down thinking, which in turn opens my mind to accept the undoing necessary to integrate the principles of the Courses’ message through my practice of forgiveness. This simultaneously places it’s signature on everyone and everything which I seemingly come in contact with, or think about
…. I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts.Over the years I have tried to be a perfect student, do the lessons perfectly, (I failed) and what it showed me was that I had an authority/ authorship issue in the form of a core belief structure. This showed me where to practice my function of forgiveness…
Still, I have tried to ‘do it right’; seeking some illusive ‘approval’ from, I don’t know, God? I used the Course’ metaphors and symbols (and so many others) like a drug to comfort myself~ rather than look deeply, at times. And still, it was the best I could do at the time… it was just perfect…
I see now that I had frightened myself off from looking~ really looking~ at the unconscious fearful beliefs which remained unquestioned and hidden (**the ego deflection device~ it’s always at the ready**). Until I didn’t… when I was no longer afraid to look deep within the darkness, with no where else to turn… except the light within the darkness…
The beauty of this system is that all the tactics the ego employs turn out to be part of the gig…the experience of my ‘private thoughts ~ up for review and reversal~ all loop back around and show me the opportunity to forgive this as well… ~Though the tendency to want to judge myself severely instead has certainly raised its head… Well, I merely forgive, again~…
And here is what I notice… The continuous experience of inner peace comes only when nothing remains assumed to be real and true. Every thought, assigned equal status brings me only peace.
In looking at my thoughts and accepting that I am not alone in experiencing the effects of them, I see they’re all the same.
It turns out that only exceptions bring the illusion of conflict, and it is becoming obvious to me that ~Truth has no exceptions.“The idea for today is obviously the reason why your seeing does not affect you alone.”(L19)
"I am not alone in experiencing the effects of my thoughts…"