LESSON TWENTY

Lesson 20:
“I am determined to see…”
The lesson says, “Your decision to see is all that vision requires… What you want is yours...”
So simple, yet… insisting accountability for ‘what’ ~ I want the Truth and I am, therefore, determined to see.
Allowing myself true opening, so as to experience reversal of the thought system that seems to make life what it is for me, accepting the way it was seemingly hard-wired in this ‘person’, has been so critical to my experiencing peace. And it has only been my determination to see, truly, that has seen me through seeming set backs, distractions and blatant denials.
However, a pattern light (call it the light of understanding) gradually began to emerge, reversing the upside-down idea that “something out there” is causing me to see what I think I see and therefore, realizing that “what I think is causing what I seem to see”.
My choice in this world, is for a script of sameness – directed by the Holy Spirit ~ or one of differences – directed by the ego. I remember when it clicked for me about the ‘real’ cause and effect relationship…I thought I understood or saw… But that whole idea, the thinking I knew, turned out to be a defense against seeing. This awareness showed me the fallacy of my ways; of my attempts to bring ‘truth to illusion’ instead of the other way around.
The paradigm of light showed that there was always a reflection of truth available within every seeming event as well as kinesthetic reflex if you will, to determine where to look. It goes like this for me: if I do not like how I am feeling about something that seems to be going on in my so-called life, I need but look directly into the source of my unhappiness; the decision in my mind to choose the ego’s attack instead of the Holy Spirit’s forgiveness, till I see through the flimsy veil and beyond to the truth of love within… (It is always there for eyes that want to see, truly). If the screen reflects an unloving experience, it can only be that I went to the wrong script source and therefore, chose an unloving film. I therefore, choose again…
It is my determination to see that allows me to have the alternative… The ensuing peace that results from turning to the Holy Spirit is what is then extended, and remains always with me, regardless of what appears to be external… …gratitude encompasses me…
I am thinking about that often referred to metaphor, but can’t be too often remembered allegory: The one about sitting in a movie theater, when the picture on the screen suddenly begins to mess up. No one in the theater would, (nor would expect the management) to rush to the screen and try to remedy the problem there. We would go instead to the usually unseen or unnoticed projection booth in the back of the theater, where the fault lies either in the movie projector or the film itself passing through the projector. Only then could the problem of the poor image on the screen be truly solved…In this analogy, the screen, represents our external lives and behavior, the projection booth represents our minds, and the projector itself represents the mind’s capacity to project (or extend) the film, which in turn represents either the thought system of the ego of the Holy Spirit, depending on our choice. …
The problem never rests on the form or the behavior of what we perceive or experience (the image on the screen), but always on the content in our minds, the thoughts with which we choose to identify (the film running through the projector).
“God has one Son, and he is the resurrection and the life. His will is done because all power is given him in Heaven and on earth... In your determination to see is vision given you…You can see them differently, and you will. What you desire you will see. Such is the real law of cause and effect as it operates in the world."
We are joined together you and I. We are the Son, experiencing ourselves as the Sonship; at home in God, merely dreaming of exile.
So often we find ourselves with an astonishing awareness, as we are coming into our willingness to ‘see’, where we want to reconcile with being the recognition that at least we’re all exiled together. And sometimes we settle here for a while, afraid to really see and loose all identity with who and what we now believe we are. (NOTE: This ‘we’ is me, I’m sure you see….) This feeling of recognizing exile yet feeling comforted in ‘not being alone’ is an oxymoron isn’t it. Exile is the very quintessence of aloneness, yes? This is the very fabric of the ego/man-made world… the deep, pervasive, existential background of the dream. This is it! This is the best and only comfort the ‘ego’ has to offer.
It is our ‘determination to see’ that opens us up to noticing, and then to listening~ to the background behind the background; “THE CALL TO JOY”… umm, yummy ~film at eleven…