“I am blessed as a Son of God…”
Ummm…Identified as a Son of God, I feel full, satisfied, whole… I have no hunger for I am fulfilled. I have no thirst for I am quenched…my so-called life is like the reflection of the sun off the ocean and I am beneath the reflection within the warm embrace of wholeness…bathed in magnificent holiness, serene certain and in endless peace…I am in this space of remembrance, for forgiveness has left my mind clear and clean of particular wants and/or needs. As I “lean back” and He leads the way, joyously I recognize I have been here all along…
I am blessed as a Son of God… ~This thought has been in the back of my mind for…well, as long as I can remember…well actually ~forever…
Now, I didn’t say I have often been conscious to this fact. And it didn’t necessarily take the form of these particular words, but it has been there, nonetheless…following me around, nipping at my heels; like a little puppy, begging attention.
Every time, every single time, I turned around in my mind~ there it was…”I am blessed as a Son of God…”
For many years of my life, before I was aware I was dreaming, I was haunted (at least it seemed that way) by a constant, secret companion, sort of an imaginary friend if you will, applying this nagging feeling of supposititious to everything I did…
I had this pervasive, unexplainable feeling like whatever I was doing, saying, etc. was not really true. ~No matter how truthful I was trying to be (and believe me, I tried to be honest~ a lot). Yet, there was always this evocative feeling ‘I was making it all up’. I could never put my finger on what this was. Try as I might, I couldn’t get to the source of it ~ it eluded me…and disturbed me… Something was sort of not ‘just right’. There was an underlying sense that I was never really living ‘my’ life… I seemed to be merely acting, pretending…yet all the while, I was trying to be more honest, authentic, me… It was disheartening to say the least…
Hey this makes me think of a little side note that changed my life. As I immersed myself in ACIM I began seeing trying from a higher view. It was a marvelous, life changing Ah-Ha, actually, to realize that the very act of “trying” was pushing what I was ‘trying for’ away ~that the try satisfied its maker ~ the thought of TRY… Wild, huh?
So anyway, I turn around in my mind, to this nagging, nipping ‘something’ …and, there I was right where I seemingly left myself; already, complete ~a blessed as a Son of God…
Amazing, yes!
Duh! Nothing else was true! This dream of loneliness I called my life was a bogus attempt to make a “me” as dictated by its dictator~ ego …designed to blot truth/God out. No wonder it was never a perfect fit!
I only fit perfectly as Christ, alongside and within the Sonship and the Mind of God. There never was a time this wasn’t true and nothing else but this ever was. “God is my life. I cannot be apart from Him.”
Now, only now, can I see. ~I see the Fact ~God is everywhere in everything.
~The vast peace of finally surrendering to the only possibility that could be true~ God, the only Cause ~ created me, His Son, from the only thing He had~ Himself/God~
And, I am still as God created me, is an experience of unspeakable security. ~Nothing could go wrong.
…I am blessed as a Son of God… forgiveness has blessed me with the miracle ~ the shift in perception from differences to sameness… And the forgiven world is revealed…
Thank you for being the perfect mirror of my mind. My gratitude to all of you, my brothers, bathes my soul, blessing us both... We are blessed as the Son of God; happy, peaceful, loving, contented and sure…
I LOVE YOU!
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