My salvation comes from me….
Let me tell you a story about my misinterpretation of this idea… and the Holy Spirit’s reinterpretation by way of me…
I am one who sought every possible, sneaky avenue, outside myself to transfer the responsibility this truth entails. Even when I ‘got it’ that guilt and happiness/unhappiness were an inside job, that no one could ‘make me guilty or happy, sad, angry, etc., still I was unwilling to accept the power of God within and as my own. But the Holy Spirit, on to my game, is always gently patient with his presence and guidance… And once I had made the decision for salvation truly, every means has been employed for its accomplishment… Sometimes this has come in what could only be called “inspiration”.
Much of the unveiling of my Self, however, seemed to come only through the excavation of the hidden; the apparently unconscious structure comprising the idea of ‘powerlessness’.
I saw that I had merely armed myself with the high-minded, elitist idea the ego was selling and I was buying. It went something like, “we create our own reality” and I felt prepared to triumph. I was sure I could manipulate, add to, eliminate [whatever it took, anyway], to secure control over the thinking/believing processes in my mind and therefore my life.
This, I believed would bring me peace and harmony and happily ever after (*note: confidence in the ego is confidence in ‘nothing’ –who would have guessed) … And with this twisted version of an ultimately ‘true’ idea, I was oblivious to the need for excavation…
So, much of what came up for me, I felt almost blind-siding by. It was totally uncomfortable and certainly unacceptable, to me; the self-concept me. It brought me face-to- face with many ‘uglinesses’. And because I judged them, I responded to with utter shamefulness and secrecy. ~ While meanwhile, ‘my ego and I worked out my plan for salvation; what I like to call ‘salvation-through-control’… What a tremendous burden I made it all for myself. When I could have let go…
The funny thing is, I didn’t realize just how ominous it was, until it was too big for the personal self to carry on my shoulders. And, shedding the crumpled shell on the floor of my so-called life, I finally reached within to the Light of Self; the Holy Spirit Self.
The burden was lifted the instant I no longer cared about how I looked or how well I was doing and cared only that I be saved from a fear-based reality, by love…
Choosing right-mindedness instantly brings with it, freedom and power in the place of control… Thank you God, for the miracle: the perception that heals all perception… “I forgive and see this differently, I forgive and this will disappear”…
Okay, so here’s the thing I came to understand… The answer doesn’t come from me, although it is within my mind where God placed it, to save it for me; “God would not have put the remedy for the sickness where it cannot help. That is the way your mind has worked, but hardly His. He wants you to be healed, so He has kept the Source of healing where the need for healing lies”.
Only the Holy Spirit knows the wholeness of the answer given by God, ‘i’ do not. Yet, it is only available to me when I desire nothing else and then I see it was my responsibility all along... This is what does the saving~ I recognize I need saving and ask for the answer, already given me, and the power of God’s creation, which is within me already, re-members its completion in God. It is so complete and whole, in fact, that nothing else could possibly ever occur at all.
Salvation comes from my One self. So since this dream I call my so-called life is a projection from my mind, the return to the right Mind is obviously the first order of business. I see then, that I am the dreamer of this dream.
Once that shift has truly been accepted, it’s plain to see that Love and fear are two exclusive thought systems.
For me, it required immense willingness to be honest, in order to see that this one choice was really all choices, and all error had its origin in my choosing the one which wasn’t real. (Which, we all know spun out a universe of total unreality …duh, to see the movie now, eh…)
Okay, recap: “The seeming cost of accepting today's idea is this: It means that nothing outside yourself can save you; nothing outside yourself can give you peace. But it also means that nothing outside yourself can hurt you, or disturb your peace or upset you in any way. Today's idea places you in charge of the universe, where you belong because of what you are. This is not a role that can be partially accepted. And you must surely begin to see that accepting it is salvation.”
ONLY the return to mind has any effect what-so-ever on getting me saved! All other tactics are basically futile and therefore delay tactics… Thank God, the Holy Spirit uses each and every miscreation perfectly to bring to mind the one illusion that heals them all ~FORGIVENESS~ and transforms what seemed like separate individuals and differences ~ into sameness and One mighty brotherhood ~ the Son as God created Him! …”God's purpose was to ensure that it did”.
… We see that the false is false and only the truth is true. Special relationships begin to take on the characteristics of the ONE-relationship with our Creator, all seeming gaps are bridged… what once appeared so tangible and real is seen for the shadow of the ancient thought long since past; till the only eraser marks of this illusion are left to show what was drawn on the screen of a so-called life and world apart for God.
And we are not alone …We take each other’s hand and walk through the cloud of unreality together and with it the entire host of Heaven….a mighty force dispelling the clouds of guilt and all calls for Love.
So, there ya go: ‘Within me is the world's salvation and my own’….
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