My grievances hide the light of the world in me...
God is the light in which I see, creating me like Himself and I am still as God created me… Naturally, I want only to be the light of the world extending Gods light and love… This is the Truth that I denied … Hidden beneath the heavy veil of forgetfulness, dreaming a darkened world and life of exile…
When I consider my so-called life and the seeming ‘reality’ of its world, it’s wild to come to terms with the absolute ‘up-side-down-ness of what I so believed the truth about myself.
That ‘secret elusive self’, I sought to keep concealed from exposure to this so-called harsh and misunderstanding world, (clearly a judgment/grievance, I held against it), was actually the light of the world, and my salvation.
I actually believed my salvation rested in keeping secret what I judged ‘others’ would judge, wouldn’t approve of, etc.
Whether what I am hiding is what I perceive to be my faults or the truth, the principle is the same, what I conceal; no one can look upon…
We don’t, in this state of forgetfulness, realize of course. We don’t realize that there are no such things as private minds. But through practices such as today’s lesson, it begins to dawn that what is one cannot be apart. They bring to light the simple and obvious fact; that what cannot be shared does not exist at all.
What our grievances conceal is our ability to see at all… our access point to vision…
I’m thinking about the early part of the text in chapter 7(T-7.XI.3), where we are given an excellent standard by which to assess the current state of our ‘reality’, I invite you to read it to compliment today’s study.
First off, let’s get down to an easily identifiable ‘red-flag’.
~Holding a grievance such plain feels awful… I don’t know how we ever even manage to tolerate it. Well, we don’t, do we? We project to get it off us, yes? It is a punishment in and of itself… What a relief we don’t have to feel it again.
It comes down to one question, “Do I want to know my Father’s
I say, “YES!’ ~ And only yes is the answer. This unequivocal Yes, handles all temptations to wander down the primrose path of perceived past, revisited. After all, the end, the journey to remembering the truth is inevitable, and proceeding according to God’s plan… Do I want joy, and peace, and recognition at last, along my way? Yes!
Steadily, we begin to recognize we “have reached the end of an ancient journey, not realizing yet that it is over”…
Isn’t today’s lessoning just the most yummy exercise? Slipping through the nothingness of the dark clouds of fear, guilt, attack, etc., completely unimpeded, carried along by the very light we are, back to the recognition that only truth is true, experienced as an encompassing lightness, extending. How glorious it is to glimpse the truth… if even only for an instant. It is enough to draw us back again and again toward the light…
Let today be the day we remain in touch with the light as move about our lives; steeped in this place of peace and light. This is the bedrock… Let us receive this a gift of certainty and safety, now today…
Can anything really ‘rock–my-world, when I am grounded in the light of Love? No, not really! Sure, the ego sends its sentinels, promoting countless temptations to value ‘specialness”, to hold grievances… But they are recognized for what they are; the first cloud to begin to conceal the light…
The transformation of consciousness; from a world held in secret self, by judgment and grievances, to one where forgiveness lights my path and peace abides and every where I look I see my Self, is an experience of overwhelming gratitude.
I never knew just how anorexic I had been in my joy until I was released. “You have no idea of the tremendous release and deep peace that comes from meeting yourself and your brothers totally without judgment…” (T-3.VI.3) Can’t you just feel the presence of this statement from the Course, right here, right now?
It has been given me to give my Self and I am forever in your debt for lighting my way…
Thank you. I love you.
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